Saturday, June 28, 2008

A JOURNEY THROUGH THE REALITY OF THE ILLUSION.......


AFTER MANY HOURS OF WALKING , THE THROBBING OF THE HEAD TURNED TO A DULL ACHE, AS THE BEING WALLKED AIMLESSLY WITH THE PURPOSE OF TRYING TO UNDERSTAND THE PROFUSION OF IMAGES THAT KEPT ASSAILING HIS BRAIN, AND WITH NO VISIBLE SIGN OF WHY HE HAD BEGUN TO RESENT THIS INTRUSION, UPON THE ONE PLACE THAT WAS THE REFUGE FROM THE OUTSIDE WORLD, WHICH HAD IN THE PAST TRIED TO STRIP HIM OF ALL HIS ACCOMPLISHMENTS, AND YET STILL, EVEN WITH THIS GROWING BITTERNESS THERE WAS A NAGGING PERSISTANCE OF SOMETHING THAT SEEMED TO BE WALKING IN THE ENVELOPING MISTS OF TIME, AND IT WAS LIKE HE KNEW WHAT IT WAS LIKE IN HIS HEART, AND YET THE CLARITY EVADED HIM, PUSHING HIM OUTSIDE OF HIS SHELL AND HE WAS DRIVEN TO WALK, NO MATTER THE DISTANCE, BECAUSE ALL THAT WAS OF CONCERN WAS TO RID HIMSELF OF THE IMAGES AND WHEN AT LAST HE FOCUSSED THERE WAS A GARDEN AND WHERE HE WAS STANDING, STOOD THESE OMNIPOTENT WALLS AND THE LARGEST IRON GATE THAT HE HAD EVER WITNESSED, BUT, WHAT ASTOUNDED HIM EVEN MORE WAS THAT HE COULD NOT REMEMBER THIS PLACE BEING HERE AT ALL, DISMISSING IT SUMMARILY AND HIS EYES FOCUSSED ON THE WALLS, WHICH SEEMED TO VIBRATE AND MOVE AND AS HE RUBBED HIS TEMPLES AND CLOSED HIS TEAR STAINED EYES, THE WALLS VACILLATED BETWEEN BEING SOLID AND TRANSPARENT AND HE DECIDED THAT IT MUST BE THE LONG WALK AND AS HE NEARED THE GATES IT FELT AS IF THE THROB HAD EASED CONSIDERABLY, BUT HE STILL CHOOSE NOT TO SEE ANY SIGNIFICANCE IN THIS AND JUST CARRIED ON THROUGH THE GATES, WHICH SWUNG SHUT SFTER HE HAD ENTERED, BUT HE DID NOT NOTICE, AS HIS ATTENTION WAS DRAWN TO THE MAGNIFICENT ARRAY OF OF COLOURFUL BLOOMS AND THE LONGER HE STARED ,THE MORE HE STARTED TO HEAR A KIND OF MUSIC, WHICH SEEMED TO BECOME LOUDER AND AS HE LOOKED AROUND, HE FELT SOMETHING ENTER THROUGH HIS FEET, WHICH HAD NOT MOVED FOR A WHILE AND IT STARTED TO MOVE UP HIS LEGS, MAKING THEM WARM AND TINGLE AND AS HE FELT THIS , HE REALISED ANOTHER FACT, THAT HIS ORIGINAL INTENTION HAD BEEN TO END IT ALL THAT NIGHT, BUT NOW, HE DID NOT EVEN QUESTION THE FEELING THAT WAS MOVING THROUGH HIS BODY AND AS IT GAINED MOMENTUM, HE FELT AT EASE FOR THE FIRST TIME IN HIS LIFE AND THE TINGLING REACHED HIS CHEST AND HE FELT ALL THE EMOTIONS OF HIS LIFE MOVING UPWARDS , HE STARTED TO CRY,AND IN FACT , THE CRYING BECAME SOBBING, AS ALL THE EMOTIONS WORKED THEIR WAY UPWARDS PAST THE THROAT AND THERE SEEMED TO BE SOUNDS EMANATING FROM HIS OWN VOICE AND THEY WERE THE SWEETEST MELODIES THAT HE COULD EVER REMEMBER HAVING HEARD AND AS IT REACHED THE BROW AREA, IT SEEMED TO SIT THERE FOR A WHILE AND THE VISIONS STARTED, BUT, THESE WERE TOTALLY DIFFERENT TO THE ONE'S WHICH HAD PLAGUED HIM; THESE WERE THE VISIONS THAT MADE HIM REALISE SOMETHING AND AS HE STRUGGLED WITH THIS, THERE WAS A RUSH FROM THE TOES TO THE HEAD AND A MASSIVE KIND OF POPPING NOISE AND THEN HE THOUGHT THAT HE WAS AWAKE, BUT WAS NOT SURE IF THIS WAS CORRECT, AND IF HE WAS ASLEEP, HE WAS STILL LOOKING AND FEELING ALL THAT HAD TRANSPIRED AND HE SEEMED TO BE MOVING, BUT HE DID NOT FEEL HIS FEET TOUCH THE GROUND, AND IT WAS ALMOST AS IF HE WAS DREAMING, BUT NOT QUITE, WHILE THE IMAGES MANIFESTED THEMSELVES ANS EACH STONE HE LOOKED AT IN THE GRAVEYARD, HE SAW THE ENTITY THAT WAS REMEMBERED AND AFTER A WHILE THE ENTITIES STARTED TO SPEAK TO HIM, AND HE COULD SEE THEM, BUT THE WORDS STILL FLOWED AND THEN HE SAW HIMSELF AS A STATUE AND HE REALISED THAT FOR TOO LONG, THAT IS EXACTLY AS HE WAS AND HOW HE MANIFESTED ALL THE NEGATIVE STUFF FROM OTHERS AND THEN CAME THE LIGHT WHICH GREW BRIGHTER AND IT STARTED TO SWIM AROUND HIS BODY AND AS THE COLOURS CHANGED HE BEGAN TO REALISE THAT HE HAD ALWAYS BELIEVED OTHERS AND HAD BEEN TOO FEARFUL TO DISCOVER HIS OWN TRUTH AND FACED WITH THIS HE SUDDENLY REMEMBERED WHAT IT WAS THAT HE HAD TO DO AND WHILE HE HAD THESE THOUGHTS, HE SAW HIMSELF STARTING TO RUN AND AROUND HIM HE PASSED ALL THESE ANIMALS AND IT WAS LIKE THEY WERE THE GUARDIANS OF SOME SORT AND HE COULD SWEAR THAT AS HE PASSED THEM ,THEY SMILED; THE OWL, THE RABBIT, THE BEAR, THE ELK, THE FOX AND THE WOLF, WHICH SEEMED TO COME TOWARDS HIM AND THEN HE FELT IT ENTER HIS BODY, AND YET WHEN HE LOOKED BEHIND HIM, THE WOOLF HAD DISAPPEARED AND HE CONTINUED TO RUN ON THIS PATH, AND AS HE RAN, THE MOONLIGHT WAS UNDER EACH FOOTFALL THAT HE MADE AND THEN THE VISTA CHANGED AND THE TIGER, THE LEAPARD, THE PANTHER, THEW MONKEY, THE BUFFALO, THE ELEPHANT , THE LION WERE ALL THERE AND THEN ALL BECAME STILL ONCE MORE AND THE DARKNES ENGULFED HIM AND WHEN HE OPENED HIS EYES, THERE HE WAS SITTING UNDER A GIANT OAK TREE AND THE GARDEN HAD DISAPPEARED, BUT AS HE PICKED HIS HAND UP TO RUB HIS EYES, HE SAW THAT HIS HANDS VIBRATED AND THEN VACILLATED BETWEEN A WOLF'S PAW AND HIS OWN HAND AND IT WAS THEN THAT HE KNEW THAT NOT ALL WAS IN VAIN AND HE HAD WORK TO DO.

2 comments:

zirelda said...

Dang Derick....

derick said...

zirelda,
thanks-- i could not help but laugh--reading your comment quickly, i thought that you had given me a new name--gracias!!!!