Saturday, June 28, 2008
AFTER MANY HOURS OF WALKING , THE THROBBING OF THE HEAD TURNED TO A DULL ACHE, AS THE BEING WALLKED AIMLESSLY WITH THE PURPOSE OF TRYING TO UNDERSTAND THE PROFUSION OF IMAGES THAT KEPT ASSAILING HIS BRAIN, AND WITH NO VISIBLE SIGN OF WHY HE HAD BEGUN TO RESENT THIS INTRUSION, UPON THE ONE PLACE THAT WAS THE REFUGE FROM THE OUTSIDE WORLD, WHICH HAD IN THE PAST TRIED TO STRIP HIM OF ALL HIS ACCOMPLISHMENTS, AND YET STILL, EVEN WITH THIS GROWING BITTERNESS THERE WAS A NAGGING PERSISTANCE OF SOMETHING THAT SEEMED TO BE WALKING IN THE ENVELOPING MISTS OF TIME, AND IT WAS LIKE HE KNEW WHAT IT WAS LIKE IN HIS HEART, AND YET THE CLARITY EVADED HIM, PUSHING HIM OUTSIDE OF HIS SHELL AND HE WAS DRIVEN TO WALK, NO MATTER THE DISTANCE, BECAUSE ALL THAT WAS OF CONCERN WAS TO RID HIMSELF OF THE IMAGES AND WHEN AT LAST HE FOCUSSED THERE WAS A GARDEN AND WHERE HE WAS STANDING, STOOD THESE OMNIPOTENT WALLS AND THE LARGEST IRON GATE THAT HE HAD EVER WITNESSED, BUT, WHAT ASTOUNDED HIM EVEN MORE WAS THAT HE COULD NOT REMEMBER THIS PLACE BEING HERE AT ALL, DISMISSING IT SUMMARILY AND HIS EYES FOCUSSED ON THE WALLS, WHICH SEEMED TO VIBRATE AND MOVE AND AS HE RUBBED HIS TEMPLES AND CLOSED HIS TEAR STAINED EYES, THE WALLS VACILLATED BETWEEN BEING SOLID AND TRANSPARENT AND HE DECIDED THAT IT MUST BE THE LONG WALK AND AS HE NEARED THE GATES IT FELT AS IF THE THROB HAD EASED CONSIDERABLY, BUT HE STILL CHOOSE NOT TO SEE ANY SIGNIFICANCE IN THIS AND JUST CARRIED ON THROUGH THE GATES, WHICH SWUNG SHUT SFTER HE HAD ENTERED, BUT HE DID NOT NOTICE, AS HIS ATTENTION WAS DRAWN TO THE MAGNIFICENT ARRAY OF OF COLOURFUL BLOOMS AND THE LONGER HE STARED ,THE MORE HE STARTED TO HEAR A KIND OF MUSIC, WHICH SEEMED TO BECOME LOUDER AND AS HE LOOKED AROUND, HE FELT SOMETHING ENTER THROUGH HIS FEET, WHICH HAD NOT MOVED FOR A WHILE AND IT STARTED TO MOVE UP HIS LEGS, MAKING THEM WARM AND TINGLE AND AS HE FELT THIS , HE REALISED ANOTHER FACT, THAT HIS ORIGINAL INTENTION HAD BEEN TO END IT ALL THAT NIGHT, BUT NOW, HE DID NOT EVEN QUESTION THE FEELING THAT WAS MOVING THROUGH HIS BODY AND AS IT GAINED MOMENTUM, HE FELT AT EASE FOR THE FIRST TIME IN HIS LIFE AND THE TINGLING REACHED HIS CHEST AND HE FELT ALL THE EMOTIONS OF HIS LIFE MOVING UPWARDS , HE STARTED TO CRY,AND IN FACT , THE CRYING BECAME SOBBING, AS ALL THE EMOTIONS WORKED THEIR WAY UPWARDS PAST THE THROAT AND THERE SEEMED TO BE SOUNDS EMANATING FROM HIS OWN VOICE AND THEY WERE THE SWEETEST MELODIES THAT HE COULD EVER REMEMBER HAVING HEARD AND AS IT REACHED THE BROW AREA, IT SEEMED TO SIT THERE FOR A WHILE AND THE VISIONS STARTED, BUT, THESE WERE TOTALLY DIFFERENT TO THE ONE'S WHICH HAD PLAGUED HIM; THESE WERE THE VISIONS THAT MADE HIM REALISE SOMETHING AND AS HE STRUGGLED WITH THIS, THERE WAS A RUSH FROM THE TOES TO THE HEAD AND A MASSIVE KIND OF POPPING NOISE AND THEN HE THOUGHT THAT HE WAS AWAKE, BUT WAS NOT SURE IF THIS WAS CORRECT, AND IF HE WAS ASLEEP, HE WAS STILL LOOKING AND FEELING ALL THAT HAD TRANSPIRED AND HE SEEMED TO BE MOVING, BUT HE DID NOT FEEL HIS FEET TOUCH THE GROUND, AND IT WAS ALMOST AS IF HE WAS DREAMING, BUT NOT QUITE, WHILE THE IMAGES MANIFESTED THEMSELVES ANS EACH STONE HE LOOKED AT IN THE GRAVEYARD, HE SAW THE ENTITY THAT WAS REMEMBERED AND AFTER A WHILE THE ENTITIES STARTED TO SPEAK TO HIM, AND HE COULD SEE THEM, BUT THE WORDS STILL FLOWED AND THEN HE SAW HIMSELF AS A STATUE AND HE REALISED THAT FOR TOO LONG, THAT IS EXACTLY AS HE WAS AND HOW HE MANIFESTED ALL THE NEGATIVE STUFF FROM OTHERS AND THEN CAME THE LIGHT WHICH GREW BRIGHTER AND IT STARTED TO SWIM AROUND HIS BODY AND AS THE COLOURS CHANGED HE BEGAN TO REALISE THAT HE HAD ALWAYS BELIEVED OTHERS AND HAD BEEN TOO FEARFUL TO DISCOVER HIS OWN TRUTH AND FACED WITH THIS HE SUDDENLY REMEMBERED WHAT IT WAS THAT HE HAD TO DO AND WHILE HE HAD THESE THOUGHTS, HE SAW HIMSELF STARTING TO RUN AND AROUND HIM HE PASSED ALL THESE ANIMALS AND IT WAS LIKE THEY WERE THE GUARDIANS OF SOME SORT AND HE COULD SWEAR THAT AS HE PASSED THEM ,THEY SMILED; THE OWL, THE RABBIT, THE BEAR, THE ELK, THE FOX AND THE WOLF, WHICH SEEMED TO COME TOWARDS HIM AND THEN HE FELT IT ENTER HIS BODY, AND YET WHEN HE LOOKED BEHIND HIM, THE WOOLF HAD DISAPPEARED AND HE CONTINUED TO RUN ON THIS PATH, AND AS HE RAN, THE MOONLIGHT WAS UNDER EACH FOOTFALL THAT HE MADE AND THEN THE VISTA CHANGED AND THE TIGER, THE LEAPARD, THE PANTHER, THEW MONKEY, THE BUFFALO, THE ELEPHANT , THE LION WERE ALL THERE AND THEN ALL BECAME STILL ONCE MORE AND THE DARKNES ENGULFED HIM AND WHEN HE OPENED HIS EYES, THERE HE WAS SITTING UNDER A GIANT OAK TREE AND THE GARDEN HAD DISAPPEARED, BUT AS HE PICKED HIS HAND UP TO RUB HIS EYES, HE SAW THAT HIS HANDS VIBRATED AND THEN VACILLATED BETWEEN A WOLF'S PAW AND HIS OWN HAND AND IT WAS THEN THAT HE KNEW THAT NOT ALL WAS IN VAIN AND HE HAD WORK TO DO.
Saturday, June 21, 2008
lying on a chilled earth in the darkness, the naked body drifted in a vacuum, as the light got brighter and the heat, playing over the body relaxed it, but still the chill from the earth seeped through, while the sun rose to reveal a scene of isolation and desolation, while the naked body was stilled into paralysis by the events and circumstances only known to this entity, who for all intent and purpose was at rest, while inside the battle played out in a subdued mind which had succumbed to the the nothingness and the darkness of no hope and as it lay there, the heat shimmers rippled across an emaciated spirit lost in a netherworld of thought without thought, a tantalising mix of pushing and exerting all in the wrong direction and overhead circled the first vultures, who after resting at night on the trees, had risen with the thermals and as they gained height, they obtained a new perspective on this arid landscape which was denuded of most living things except the naked body, oblivious and unaware of it's surroundings, while the vultures grew in number and circled until the shadows of this mass of birds touched the naked body and the muscles started to twitch, slowly at first and with each twitch a puff of a dust cloud arose from around the naked body, as the mass grew larger and the landscape grew darker, as their shadows diminished the sunlight until all was in darkness and the birds floated downwards in the blackness and set up concentric circles around the naked body as it lay there unaware of all the attention it was garnering, and as the last birds covered the body, the sun disappeared entirely and the mass of vultures began to feed and as the sounds of the feeding grew louder, everything else became quieter, until there was a silence and a darkness, where nothing could be seen or heard and when the first light caressed the landscape with it's gentle touch, there were the bones of the naked body lying in the same position it was before the visitation and then the sky became overcast and the cumulus nimbus grew pregnant with the expectation of an event, while the lightening played across the heavens and the thunder rolled across the landscape with the shouts of nature,as the first rains hit the earth and raised the dust even higher, until a sheet of water fell and all grew dark once more, while the earth soaked up this life giving force, which saturated the bones and as the rains started to diminish, the most amazing event transpired, happening in an instant, the bones grew skin and the naked bones were reconstituted and it arose from the desolation and opened up it's eyes and in that moment and instant all around was transformed into a luscious forested plain with a stream running nearby and the birds were singing and as the being looked around, it smiled for the first time, in a very long time and finally realised it's purpose and smiled with humility and gratitude at the opportunity to inhale and exhale and the joyousness of the journey ahead.
Sunday, June 15, 2008
EYES CLOSED,EYES OPEN,THERE IS THE FLOATING SENSATION WHICH SEEMS TO LINGER WITH THE POSSIBILITY OF SOMETHING MORE AS THE LANDSCAPE PASSES EVER GENTLY BENEATH ONE'S ASPIRATIONS AND THE MINUTES AND THE HOURS TURN INTO DAYS ,WEEKS AND MONTHS, WHILE THE EMOTIONAL DETOURS HOLD ONE MOTIONLESS, AS THE INTENSITY VARIES AND THE WEIGHT OF THE PERCEPTIONS OF THE MIND WEIGH HEAVILY ON THE SENTIENT BEING, AS THE GOSSAMER LIKE THREADS OF REALITY ARE SOMETIMES TENUOUS ,AT BEST ,AND WHILE ALL THE TIME THE GAPING HOLE OF DISJOINTEDNESS CRIES OUT FOR THE RECESSED MEMORY OF HEALING AND WHOLENESS, WHICH EXISTS ON A PARALELL VENTURE, WILLING AND ABLE TO NURTURE, IF THE FEAR THAT IS PRESENT LOSES IT'S WAY AND LEAVES THE BEING TO PROCESS ALL THAT IS RELEVANT AND FIND THE HOME OF THE SPIRIT WHICH IT HAS BEEN SEEKING, FOR IN THE EXPECTATION OF A QUICKFIX TO THE CURRENT BOUT OF FEELINGS, WHICH CHANGE WITH THE SEASONS AND FLOW WITH THE TIDES, WHILE IN THE CLARITY AND EMBRACE OF WHAT LIES BEFORE ONE, IS THAT HOME EMBEDDED WITHIN ONESELF, WHICH AWAITS THE OPPORTUNITY TO DIVULGE ITSELF, BUT NOT UNTIL THE LESSONS ARE LEARNT AND THE PROCESSES ARE KEPT IN PERPETUAL MOVEMENT, AS THE NEXT SUNRISE APPEARS AND A SUDDEN REALISATION OF A SENSE OF PURPOSE AND MEANING IS CONCRETISED AND THE SENTIENT BEING SOARS INWARDLY TO MEET ITSELF IN A PLACE FROM WHICH IT HAD ORIGINALLY COME FROM.
Saturday, June 14, 2008
CRAFTED IN A CRICIBLE OF FIRE THE WORDSMITH STARTS TO PONDER AND SLOWLY CHUCKLES TO HIMSELF AS HE BEGINS TO LAUGH HARDER AND HARDER, LOUDER AND LOUDER, WHILE HIS WHOLE BODY CONVULSES AND RIPPLES WITH THE WAVES OF ENERGY, WHICH EMANATE DEEP WITHIN AND COME PORING OUT TO CRASH ON AN EXPECTANT SHORELINE, WHICH HAD NOT BEEN IN A POSITION BEFORE, TO FEEL THE AMOUNT OF ENERGY WASHING OVER IT, AS THE ORCHIDS TURNED THEIR HEADS IN SNOBBISH AMAZEMENT TO THE BIRDS WHO ALL STRTED TO SING TOGETHER AND AS THIS ENERGY GAINED IN IT'S MOMENTUM, IT WAS THE PIED PIPER OF MOBILISATION, AS ALL REALISED THAT HERE WAS SOMETHING THAT RESONATED WITH THEM AND FRIEND AND FOE ALIKE JOINED HANDS, CLAWS AND WINGS TO ESCALATE THIS MOVEMENT, WHEN SUDDENLY THE MOTION STOPPED AND IN THE NEXT FEW MOMENTS THERE WAS A CACOPHENOUS DISTURBANCE, AND THEN THE EAR SHATTERING SILENCE, WHICH MADE ALL THINK WHAT HAD HAPPENED WAS A FIGMENT OF THEIR IMAGINATION AND AS THAT STARTED TO SINK IN, THEY SLOWLY RETREATED FROM EACH OTHER AND THE SAME LOOK FROM THE PAST, REPLACED THE JOYOUS HARMONY, UNTIL SUDDENLY THERE WAS A ROARING THUNDER AND LIGHTENING AND SOMETHING ELSE BEGAN TO FILTER THROUGH AND AS THEY TRIED TO DISTINGUISH THE THE SOUND, THE REALISATION DAWNED UPON THEM SIMULTANEOUSLY, FOR IN THAT MOMENT, THE LAUGHTER HAD RETURNED AND THE PROCESS CONTINUED ON IT'S SOJOURN, TO SPREAD THE LIGHT IN THE DARKNESS, THE UNITY AND STRENGTH TO ALL LIVING ORGANISMS AND THE REST OF WHAT HAPPENED IN THIS STORY IS UP TO YOU TO COMPLETE, AS YOU SPREAD THE JOY AND LOVE TO ALL THAT CROSS YOUR PATH AND IN THIS PROCESS YOU WILL BE THE JUDGE.
CAUGHT IN A TIME BUBBLE OF ONE'S OWN MAKING,HARSHLY APPRAISING A SITUATION WHICH SHOULD HAVE A GENTLER APPROACH, WHEN ONE GETS CAUGHT IN THE FORCES, BEYOND THE CONTROL OF THE MERE MORTAL, WHO IS USED TO HAVING A BOXLIKE PARAMETER VISION, WITH THE CONTROL OVER A DOMAIN WHICH IS LIMITED ONLY BY THE IMAGINATION, WHICH AT SOME STAGES CAN BE SUBVERTED WITHOUT A CARE OR A THOUGHT AND CAN BE RIDDEN ROUGHSHOD OVER ALL WHO CROSS THE PATH OF ENRICHMENT, TAKING IN OR INVARIABLY NOT TAKING IN ALL THE DYNAMICS OF A CAUSAL RELATIONSHIP TO ONE'S FELLOW BRETHREN, DEPENDING ON THE RELATIONSHIP ONE WOULD HAVE WITH DIVERSITY AND SECONDLY TO A FRAGILE ENVIRONMENT, WHERE THE THOUGHT THAT PRECEDES AN ACTION, HAS THE DEPTH OF A PUDDLE IN A DENUDED DESERT, WHERE A PERVASIVE SINGULAR THOUGHT OF SELF PRECEDES ALL ACTIONS AND AS ONE PREPARES TO WALK THE HIGH ROAD, FOR NO OTHER REASON THAN THE VIEW THAT IT OFFERS AND FEELING THE FREEDOM OF ONE'S COURSE, WHILE THE SCREAMING MASSES RAISE THEMSELVES UP AND COWER IN THE SHADOW OF THEIR OWN LIMITATIONS, THERE COMES A RIPPLE ACROSS THE PLAINS OF EXTREMES, WHICH STRIKE DEEP INTO THOSE THAT WOULD HAVE THE MOST TO LOSE AND AS THE GREY SUITS WITH DESIGNER LABELS GATHER AND THINK OF WAYS AND SOLUTIONS, NOT TO CHANGE, BUT TO KEEP THE STATUS QUO, SO DOES THE UNDERBELLY OF THE POTBELLIED PIG BECOME AN EVEN MORE APPEALING SIGHT TO THOSE LOOKING FROM THEIR VANTAGE POINT AND IN THE MASS HYSTERIA OF THE HAVE NOTS, THE THOUGHTS ARE TO OVERWHELM THE OPPRESSOR AND UNSEAT THEM FROM THE EVER PRESENT TROUGH OF AMAZING SELF INDULGENT TIT BITS AND NOT BECAUSE IT IS WRONG, BUT BECAUSE, FOR SO LONG, THEY HAVE SEEN THE POT AT THE END OF THE RAINBOW AND NOW ALL THAT THEY YEARN FOR, IS THE POT AND IN THAT MOMENT, ALL THAT IS HAPPENING AND WILL HAPPEN IS A CHANGE OF THE GUARD AND SOME THAT DID NOT HAVE WILL HAVE A LOT MORE AND OTHERS WHO WERE WAITING, BUT WERE TOO FAR AWAY, WILL END UP WITH WHAT THEY HAD IN THE BEGINNING, WHICH WAS NOTHING AND SLOWLY THE WHEEL WILL TURN ON ITSELF AGAIN.
Friday, June 13, 2008
Saturday, June 7, 2008
IT WAS LATE IN THE MORNING AS THE WOMAN AWOKE, STARTLED IN THE DISORIENTATION OF HER SURROUNDINGS AND NERVOUSLY GLANCING AROUND TO CHECK WHERE SHE WAS, AS THE MOVEMENT OF THE BLANKET CAUSED A FINE LINE OF DUST TO BE RELEASED, HELD IN THE MOMENT BY THE VOYEURISTIC SUNSHINE , MAKING IT'S WAY THROUGH THE BROKEN SHUTTERED WINDOWS, WHILE THE MUSTY SMELL OF THE UN AIRED DANK SURROUNDINGS ASSAILED HER NOSTRILS, AS HER MIND BEGAN TO RACE AND REMEMBER WHY IT WAS THAT SHE WAS IN THIS STRANGE ROOM, IN A PLACE, SHE HARDLY REMEMBERED, AND AS THE AWARENESS OF CONSCIOUSNESS GRIPPED HER IN A VICE-LIKE GRIP OF REALITY, THE THOUGHTS FLOODED INTO HER MIND, AS HER BODY SHUDDERED IN THE FEAR AND THE KNOWINGNESS OF WHAT SHE WAS RUNNING FROM, BUT THE ANSWER AND THE DESTINATION OF WHERE SHE WAS GOING ELUDED HER, AS SHE STEPPED OUT OF THE BED AND FELT THE ITCHINESS OF THE DUST MITES THAT HAD HAD THE PRIVILEGE OF HER COMPANY THIS NIGHT, AND AS THE FIRST DROPS OF WATER HIT HER HEAD AND SHE CLOSED HER EYES, WHILE THE HOT WATER SPRAY RAN DOWN HER BODY AND SHE STARTED TO DRIFT AND THINK OF THE REASONS AND CIRCUMSTANCES THAT HAD BROUGHT HER TO A PLACE OF FEAR AND INSECURITY AND ON THE RUN FROM AN ABUSIVE ALCOHOLIC PARTNER, WHO HAD IMPRESSED UPON HER HIS NEEDS AND THE MASCULINE STRENGTH OF HIS FEET AND FISTS, WHICH RAINED DOWN UPON HER MORE FREQUENTLY, UNTIL THE THE TIME ARRIVED WHEN THE FEAR, THAT SHE HAD WAS NOT ENOUGH TO KEEP HER IN THAT PLACE AND SHE ACTED MORE OUT OF A NECESSITY TO FLEE AND CARRY HER HER FEAR WITH HER TO ALL THOSE UNKNOWN PLACES, WHICH BEGAN TO MERGE INTO ONE KIND OF HELL TOWN AFTER ANOTHER AND AS SHE DRESSED AND DECIDED TO TAKE A WALK, SHE REALISED THAT SOMEHOW, SHE HAD TO LIVE THE WAY SHE FELT IN THAT DARK SECRET PLACE AND AS THESE THOUGHTS PLAYED ON HER MIND, SHE BECAME AWARE OF THE SILENCE AND FOUND HERSELF IN A FOREST, WHICH SHE HAD NOT NOTICED ON ENTERING THE TOWN AND AS THE AWARENESS INCREASED, SHE FELT FOR THE FIRST TIME A SENSE OF CALMNESS AND PEACE, WHICH SEEMED TO EMANATE FROM DEEP INSIDE HERSELF AND SHE SAT DOWN UNDER THIS ENORMOUS TREE, RESTING HER BACK AGAINST IT'S BROAD GIRTH, WHILE SHE FELT KIND OF SLEEPY AND AS HER EYES CLOSED, FOR THE FIRST TIME WITHOUT THE HISTORY OF THE MEMORIES PLAYING THROUGH HER HALF SLEEP, SHE WENT INTO A WORLD OF DREAMS AND FELT THAT HER BODY WAS PART OF THIS GIANT TREE AND AS THE WIND PLAYED WITH THE UPPER BRANCHES, SHE STARTED TO SMILE AND LAUGH AND AS THE LAUGHTER GREW LOUDER, HER WHOLE BODY CONVULSED AND SHE COULD SEE HER SLEEPING SELF AND AT THE SAME TIME, SHE COULD SEE THE DREAM, FEEL THE LAUGHTER, WHICH PERMEATED THE FOREST, WHILE SHE SUDDENLY SAW THIS BLACKNESS THAT HAD STARTED TO EMERGE FROM HER HEAD AND GREW LARGER AND LARGER, SHE REALISED THAT THIS WAS THE ACCUMULATION OF ALL THE EMOTIONAL NEGATIVITY THAT HAD COLLECTED, WHICH WAS STILL TRYING TO STAY INSIDE HER, WHILE HER FEET BEGAN TO GLOW AND SPARKLE WITH A GOLDEN LIGHT WHICH MOVED IT'S WAY UPWARDS, FORCING THIS BLACK ENERGY UPWARDS AND OUTWARDS AND AS SHE WATCHED IN AMAZEMENT, THE BLACK ENERGY BEGAN TO DISSIPATE, AS THE TREE SENT OUT LONG TENDRILS OF WHITE ENERGY, UNTIL THERE WAS NOTHING LEFT.
SUDDENLY SHE WAS BACK IN HER OWN BODY AGAIN, AWAKE AND KNOWING INSTINCTIVELY AND INTUITIVELY, THAT ALL HAD CHANGED AND AS SHE LEFT THE FOREST, SHE KNEW THAT LIFE WOULD BE DIFFERENT AND THAT SHE WOULD BE INSTRUMENTAL IN HELPING OTHERS TO FACE THE SCOURGE OF COWARDICE AND MANIPULATION FROM PEOPLE WHO HAD TO EXERCISE THEIR POWER THROUGH THEIR FISTS AND WERE THEMSELVES JUST A PRODUCT OF A CIRCULAR EXISTENCE.
Sunday, June 1, 2008
IN THE NARROW CONFINES OF AN ELEVATOR, AS THE MOVEMENT STANDS STILL AND ALL THAT CAN BE SEEN ARE THE CHANGING NUMBERS, WHICH IS THE ONLY WAY THAT ONE IS COGNISANT OF THE FACT, THAT ONE IS GOING ANYWHERE, WHILE THE MIND SWITCHES OFF AND THE ATTENTION SPAN IS REDUCED TO THE MEREST TRICKLE, AS THE ATTIC FILLED RESERVOIR OF MEMORIES OF THE PAST ENGAGES ITSELF IN AN INTERNAL DIALOGUE, VACILLATING IN THE NARROW CONFINES OF A BELIEVED REALITY, AS THE DECISIONS THAT HAVE BEEN MADE ARE ARGUED, THE WORDS THAT WERE NOT SAID ARE SHOUTED OUT, REVERBERATING AND CAUSING THAT WARM FEELING OF SELF APPROVAL THAT A RESOLUTION HAS BEEN MADE TO A SITUATION, WHICH SO LONG AGO VANISHED, IS COMMENDABLE AND THEN THERE IS A SHIFT AND ALL RETURNS TO THE BEGINNING, WHILE THE GAINS MADE WITH THE THOUGHT ARE LOST TO AN EMOTIONALITY, WHICH HAS IT'S BEGINNINGS IN THE STOMACH AND LIKE A GIANT WAVE OF UPENDED PAIN COMES CRASHING DOWN AND RELEASES SOME OF THAT ENERGY INSIDE AN ORGANISM, WHO IS OVERWHELMED IN THE PROCESS AND LOSES SIGHT OF THE PRESENT REALITY, TO RATHER STAY IN THE FROZEN MOMENT OF A PAST REALITY AND FIGHT IT DAY AFTER DAY, WHILE THE WAVE SUBSIDES AND THE PANIC THAT IS LEFT FROM THE WAVE OF UNSOLVED EMOTIONAL ENERGY PRECIPITATES A NEW STATUS QUO, WHERE THE FEAR IS UP SIZED AND THE IMMOBILITY GROWS IN IT'S OWN STATURE, FOREVER A REMINDER OF AN EMOTION OR MANY EMOTIONS THAT WERE NOT SEIZED UPON AT THEIR TIME AND WERE NOT TACKLED AND SEEN SOMETIMES AS AN OPPORTUNITY TO BE ABLE TO REGAIN THE WHOLENESS, UNTIL ALL, THAT WEIGHED DOWN INTERNALLY ON THE SENTIENT BEING CAUSED IT TO BELIEVE THAT THE SITUATION WAS AKIN TO BEING BURIED ALIVE, AS THE MORE THAT IT SCREAMED AND TRIED TO CATCH SOMEONES ATTENTION, THE MORE IT WAS IGNORED, UNTIL THE MOMENT CAME, WHERE THERE WAS ANOTHER WHO LISTENED AND DID NOT TALK, AND IN THE PROCESS OF LISTENING, THERE SEEMED TO COME A CALMNESS AND A WILLINGNESS TO TRY ONE MORE TIME TO EXTRICATE ALL THOSE FEELINGS OF NOT FEELING WORTHY, OF THE PAIN FROM CHILDHOOD AND ALL THE OTHER PAIN THAT HAD STEMMED FROM THAT ORIGINAL PAIN, AND SO, WITH A CURIOSITY AND A NEW INTENTION THAT WAS EVIDENT IN THE STEP AND THE POSTURE, THERE WAS A MISSION PLANNED TO FOLLOW THE PATH BACK TO THE SOURCE AND WITH TIME, THE PAIN DISSIPATED AND ALL SEEMED TO TAKE ON A NEW COAT, WHICH WAS OF COURSE, A CHANGE IN THE PERCEPTION, WHICH ALTERED THE REALITY AND AS THE SENTIENT BEING WAS GRASPING AND REJOICING IN THE WHOLENESS OF ITSELF, THERE WAS AN OUTSIDE STIMULUS THAT INTRUDED, A BUMP, AND THE ELEVATOR DOORS OPENED, TO A SIGHT AND A FEELING ,OF IN THE MOMENT OF THE MOMENT, AND ALL SEEMED DIFFERENT, AND THE BEING STEPPED OUT WITH A BROAD SMILE, READY ,WILLING AND ABLE TO TACKLE THE NEXT PART OF THE JOURNEY.