Sunday, June 1, 2008

THE ELEVATOR.........


IN THE NARROW CONFINES OF AN ELEVATOR, AS THE MOVEMENT STANDS STILL AND ALL THAT CAN BE SEEN ARE THE CHANGING NUMBERS, WHICH IS THE ONLY WAY THAT ONE IS COGNISANT OF THE FACT, THAT ONE IS GOING ANYWHERE, WHILE THE MIND SWITCHES OFF AND THE ATTENTION SPAN IS REDUCED TO THE MEREST TRICKLE, AS THE ATTIC FILLED RESERVOIR OF MEMORIES OF THE PAST ENGAGES ITSELF IN AN INTERNAL DIALOGUE, VACILLATING IN THE NARROW CONFINES OF A BELIEVED REALITY, AS THE DECISIONS THAT HAVE BEEN MADE ARE ARGUED, THE WORDS THAT WERE NOT SAID ARE SHOUTED OUT, REVERBERATING AND CAUSING THAT WARM FEELING OF SELF APPROVAL THAT A RESOLUTION HAS BEEN MADE TO A SITUATION, WHICH SO LONG AGO VANISHED, IS COMMENDABLE AND THEN THERE IS A SHIFT AND ALL RETURNS TO THE BEGINNING, WHILE THE GAINS MADE WITH THE THOUGHT ARE LOST TO AN EMOTIONALITY, WHICH HAS IT'S BEGINNINGS IN THE STOMACH AND LIKE A GIANT WAVE OF UPENDED PAIN COMES CRASHING DOWN AND RELEASES SOME OF THAT ENERGY INSIDE AN ORGANISM, WHO IS OVERWHELMED IN THE PROCESS AND LOSES SIGHT OF THE PRESENT REALITY, TO RATHER STAY IN THE FROZEN MOMENT OF A PAST REALITY AND FIGHT IT DAY AFTER DAY, WHILE THE WAVE SUBSIDES AND THE PANIC THAT IS LEFT FROM THE WAVE OF UNSOLVED EMOTIONAL ENERGY PRECIPITATES A NEW STATUS QUO, WHERE THE FEAR IS UP SIZED AND THE IMMOBILITY GROWS IN IT'S OWN STATURE, FOREVER A REMINDER OF AN EMOTION OR MANY EMOTIONS THAT WERE NOT SEIZED UPON AT THEIR TIME AND WERE NOT TACKLED AND SEEN SOMETIMES AS AN OPPORTUNITY TO BE ABLE TO REGAIN THE WHOLENESS, UNTIL ALL, THAT WEIGHED DOWN INTERNALLY ON THE SENTIENT BEING CAUSED IT TO BELIEVE THAT THE SITUATION WAS AKIN TO BEING BURIED ALIVE, AS THE MORE THAT IT SCREAMED AND TRIED TO CATCH SOMEONES ATTENTION, THE MORE IT WAS IGNORED, UNTIL THE MOMENT CAME, WHERE THERE WAS ANOTHER WHO LISTENED AND DID NOT TALK, AND IN THE PROCESS OF LISTENING, THERE SEEMED TO COME A CALMNESS AND A WILLINGNESS TO TRY ONE MORE TIME TO EXTRICATE ALL THOSE FEELINGS OF NOT FEELING WORTHY, OF THE PAIN FROM CHILDHOOD AND ALL THE OTHER PAIN THAT HAD STEMMED FROM THAT ORIGINAL PAIN, AND SO, WITH A CURIOSITY AND A NEW INTENTION THAT WAS EVIDENT IN THE STEP AND THE POSTURE, THERE WAS A MISSION PLANNED TO FOLLOW THE PATH BACK TO THE SOURCE AND WITH TIME, THE PAIN DISSIPATED AND ALL SEEMED TO TAKE ON A NEW COAT, WHICH WAS OF COURSE, A CHANGE IN THE PERCEPTION, WHICH ALTERED THE REALITY AND AS THE SENTIENT BEING WAS GRASPING AND REJOICING IN THE WHOLENESS OF ITSELF, THERE WAS AN OUTSIDE STIMULUS THAT INTRUDED, A BUMP, AND THE ELEVATOR DOORS OPENED, TO A SIGHT AND A FEELING ,OF IN THE MOMENT OF THE MOMENT, AND ALL SEEMED DIFFERENT, AND THE BEING STEPPED OUT WITH A BROAD SMILE, READY ,WILLING AND ABLE TO TACKLE THE NEXT PART OF THE JOURNEY.

2 comments:

RainforestRobin said...

I read this once with my eyes and then I read it a second time with my eyes, voice and heart...and I had tears. I understood it and "knew" it. It poignantly speaks to me of the great courage of the human soul. The infinite desire to return to the peace and purity of source, ourselves. The desire to rise above, look down and see with great eyes who we really are. To let go. To face the day with an open brave heart.

This piece is so profound that it has many many layers, but but again it has that same poignancy and sweetness of the human soul that touches me so much. It amazes me over and over the depth with which you see and write from.

As I was reading this piece out loud...WOW!!! It was SO powerful that I thought you ought to record them and put them on your site. Well done.

derick said...

robin,
this piece started off without any preconceived idea.
i just followed the flow and surrendered to my muse.
i feel blessed and surprise myself many times--as i do not read until i have finished.
thank you for the feedback and apppreciation
namaste