Thursday, March 6, 2008

IN THE ABSENSE OF LIGHT....................


IN THE ABSENSE OF LIGHT, THERE IS DARKNESS, A PERVASIVE OPPRESSION TO THE SENSES,WHEN THE FEAR FACTOR IS HIGH AND THE SELF ESTEEM LOW.

SUCCUMBING TO THE ABSENSE OF LIGHT, EXTERNALLY AND INTERNALLY, IS THE COPING MECHANISM OF THE SENTIENT BEING, TO DELAY THE ONCOMING FREIGHT TRAIN OF UPENDED PAIN, WHICH SEEMS TO COME FROM THE BOTTOM OF THE GUT AND PROPELS ITSELF, TO OVERWHELM ALL THE SENSES AND SENDS ONE INTO PAROXYSMS OF DOUBT AND NEGATIVITY, WHILE IN THE PROCESS THE IMMOBILISATION OF THE HUMAN BEING, SPREADS IT'S TENTACLES TO EVERY ASPECT OF ONE'S LIFE.

BEING PRESENT IN ONE'S LIFE AND NOT BEING A PASSENGER, LEADS ONE TO TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR THE STIMULUS AND THE EMOTIONAL CONTENT OF ONE'S LIFE.

TO BE PRESENT ALLOWS ONE TO BE THE MATADOR IN THE BULL RING OF ONE'S LIFE.

FACE THE BULL OF DARKNESS IN ONE'S OWN LIFE OR TREMBLE WITH FEAR AND BRING THOSE FEARS TO THE SURFACE, BY MANIFESTING WHAT MIGHT HAPPEN.

THE FIGHT OR FLIGHT MECHANISM COMES TO THE FORE.
WHERE THE MIND IS CONCERNED THERE IS NO FLIGHT.
USING THE ADRENALIN BUILD UP TO TAKE THE OFFENSIVE POSITION, WHERE ONE DECIDES ONCE AND FOR ALL, WHO ONE IS, WHAT ONE IS AND WHERE ONE WOULD LIKE TO BE.

THE BATTLE THAT ONE IS ABOUT TO PURSUE IS A DICHOTOMY.
IT IS NOT A BATTLE OF VIOLENCE---IT IS A BATTLE OF PEACE, TO REGAIN THE WHOLENESS.
TO BE ABLE TO SOLIDIFY ONE'S INTENTIONS AND TAKE THE STEPS ONE BY ONE.

NOT ALL WILL WORK OUT THE WAY THAT YOU THOUGHT OR INTENDED.

BEING IN THE PRESENT IS AN AID TO BE ABLE TO ASSESS THE SITUATION AS IT UNFOLDS.
SOMETIMES A VERY SMALL STEP FORWARD, COULD BE THE TURNING POINT AND THE STEPPING STONE.
WITHOUT ATTEMPTING TO TAKE THAT STEP AND OVERTHINKING THE POSSIBLE RESULTS OF THE ACTION, WILL LET ONE SLIDE INTO A STATE OF OBLIVION.

FOR SOME IT IS THE COMFORTABILITY OF KNOWING THAT IT IS BETTER THE ONE THAT ONE KNOWS AND NOT ANYTHING ELSE.

ONE'S REACTION TO ONE'S LIFE, SHOULD NEVER BE TAKEN LIGHTLY.
THE RESPONSE SHOULD BE AS IF ONE WERE IN AN EARTHQUAKE OR IN A SPREADING FIRE.
THAT IS OF COURSE WITHOUT THE PANIC.

THE FLUTTERING THAT ONE FEELS IN A SITUATION IS THE DOUBT AND FEAR OF THE UNKNOWN CREEPING IN.

IF THERE IS FOCUS AND NO INTENTION, THEN THE FEELING WILL TAKE OVER.
THIS LEADS TO NOT BEING ABLE TO MAKE THE CORRECT CHOICE OR NOT MAKING ANY CHOICE AT ALL.

ACCEPTANCE OF THE FEELING, AN EMOTION AND AN ENERGY, IS HAVING CONVINCED ONESELF THAT THE 'REALITY' OF WHAT IS BEING EXPERIENCED IS THE ONLY TRUTH AND THAT THERE IS NO OTHER WAY.
THIS IS A CLASSIC STIMULUS AND RESPONSE.

THE QUESTION IS, HOW DOES ONE BREAK THE CYCLE AND WHERE DOES ONE GO FROM THERE.

WHERE THE EMOTIONS ARE CONCERNED NOTHING IS QUITE SO SIMPLE OR CLEAR CUT, UNLESS ONE ENDEAVOURS TO MAKE THE CHOICE OF WORKING TOWARDS SIMPLICITY.

THE HAMSTER WHEEL IS THE MOST INVITING CHOICE.
CARRY ON IF NOTHING HAS HAPPENED AND AS THE WHEEL TURNS, SO DO YOU, OR DO YOU?

THE TEST THAT YOU HAVE REALLY ACHIEVED SOMETHING WITH ONE'S EMOTIONS ARE:
HAS THE SITUATION CHANGED?
HAS THE STIMULUS BEEN RESOLVED ?
HOW DO YOU ACTUALLY FEEL ?
HAS MY PERSPECTIVE CHANGED ?
HAVE MY THOUGHTS CHANGED ?
HAS MY REALITY CHANGED ?
WHEN CONFRONTING A SITUATION, WHAT IS MY GUT REACTION ?
IS THERE STILL THE NERVOUSNESS ?
DID I MAKE ANY COMMITMENT ?
DID I FOLLOW THROUGH ?
DID I IMPLEMENT ANYTHING NEW ?
IS THERE A DIFFERENCE IN THE WAY I FELT AND LOOKED AT THINGS AND HOW I FEEEL NOW AND LOOK AT THINGS ?
DID I MOVE ANYWHERE OUTSIDE MY COMFORT ZONE ?
DO I STILL LABEL MYSELF AS.....?
DO OTHERS STILL LABEL ME AS......?
ARE YOUR OLDEST FRIENDS AND FAMILY STILL SEEING YOU AS THE SAME ?
HAS MY ATTITUDE CHANGED ANYTHING ANYTHING IN MY LIFE ?
DO I FEEL GUILT OR REMORSE ABOUT ANY PREVIOUS OR CURRENT ACTIONS ?HAVE I MADE AMENDS FOR ANYTHING THAT I HAVE FELT GUILTY OR REMORSEFUL ABOUT ?
DO I BELIEVE IN MYSELF ?
DO I LOVE MYSELF WITHOUT THE VANITY ?
HAVE I BEEN ABLE TO TOUCH SOMEONE CLOSE TO ME ? (FIGURATIVELY)
HAVE I RESOLVED THE CAUSAL ENERGY OF THE ISSUES ?


IF ONE IS WILLING TO START ON THIS AND HAS ACCOMPLISHED SOME OR MOST, THEN ONE IS WELL ON THE WAY TO REGAINING WHAT ONE ONCE HAD.

FROM THE DARKNESS TO THE LIGHT----ALWAYS!

4 comments:

Tiny Bellows said...

Wonderful! Darkness can be symbolic of so many things. It is how you look at it.
Thank Derick.

derick said...

tiny B,
THANK YOU FOR THAT--ALWAYS IN THE PERCEPTION!!

Phoenix said...

does this have anything to do with eskom??? :)

only kidding, this is a really nice post, and personally i only stepped out into the light 2 weeks ago, for the first time in months I feel alive! a lot of the questions you asked has changed for me personally!!

great post! Thanks

derick said...

PHOENIX,
thank you --stepping out into the light is a great feeling!!
i hope that your holiday proves to be an opportunity and a great experience
take care